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December 31st, 2005

11:51 pm - well.. its currently nine minutes to 2006. the year the US will consider me an adult, and the year i leave the public education system once and for all. ill be doing some new things...but at midnight, what really changes? when you sit there watching the clock does anything actually change? all that "changes" is mans creation of a system to keep track ofourselves. thats all time really is.just a way to stress out about what you still have to do, what youve done not so long ago, and how much longer youll be doing what your doing so in society's terms your "sane" because you can organise yourself to their standards. i truely dispise time, and find myself doing things for large amounts of it without really thinking about it, as if nothing has changed because in fact, the only thing that has changed is our planet revolving between night and day around the sun, so someone decided to create another system of change to accompany it. its quite difficult to talk about the concept of time and what your doing, without actually using the terms of hours, minutes,days, and time in general. why? because weve been conditioned to it. i believe that i could go on for "hours" but i only have a few "minutes" before i have to celebrate a change in "time" so i bid you adeiu and ill see you soon. Current Mood: thoughtful

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December 10th, 2005

10:52 pm You Are Boyish Sexy You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football... Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox. You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness. What Kind of Sexy Are You? Current Mood: tired

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10:44 pm - so thats why are first date was such a success You are a Brainy Girl! Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books. You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more. For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests. A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either! What Kind of Girl Are You?

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December 1st, 2005

06:27 pm - myspace blows _____ (fill in the blank ..be creative) I am stupid for ever thinking to leave LJ for a second! I went to my myspace account to add a journal (more friends there) and I previewed it, then hit back..and it vas gone! sacre bleu! that has never ever never happened here! so I took it as a sign and decided to sign in over here :) although im not liking typing right now...my mom took me to have a "girls day out" and I got a manicure...needless to say Im an idiot and i have to type really carefully or else it looks like a twelve year old boy going through puberty with terets. or like Im cross eyed. anywho.. happy 7 month aniversary (and 2 days) to me! not that Im being freaky with the days, its just easy to remember cause it was the 30th. man im itchy. something bit me in my sleep EVERYWHERE last night. i washed my sheets heavily so hopefully I wont die in my sleep tonight.actually that would be ok because i have an econ project tomorrow, and my topic is "increase in tattoos and parlors in our economy" yeah predictable i know..but...it sucks. i should have done avian influenza, at least kids would listen to me! it only has to be 3 minutes..at least..so this is what ill do. ....blah blah history of tattoos, blah blah removal techniques...blah blah diseases..blah blah statistics.done. that will be over three minutes i think. ( i wrote 10 pages) but i have accursed homework, so tata for now. Current Mood: itchy

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November 23rd, 2005

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07:32 am ::update:: from now on Im going to be writing my book and adding little pieces in LJ for "viewing pleasure" ...I need to know how bad it sucks. ^_^ lol but I'll be updating later this afternoon. ok bye bye! Current Mood: tired

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November 8th, 2005

07:16 am - bleh usually i dont have two bad days in a row..but i did. o crap. well yesterday the shit hit the fan, because i am sick and tired of a certain someone ditching me for a certain someone else. All the time its phone calls 5 minutes before my curfew so then they go hang out after i go home EVERY night. and i get lied to too. Like, "im going home and going to bed" turns into "im so tired i was out so late last night with ____" and im sick of it! they go everywhere together and at the snap of this asshole's fingers their off! he bought tickets to a show and called him up and said, "hey i got 2 tickets, your coming right?" and so he dropped all of his classes for the night for this asshole. he would never do that for me and i know it, nor would i make him do something like that. the reason the shit hit the fan last night was because he promised to called me when he got out of class. oh yeah, he called. I answered the phone and there's loud music booming in the background. he went to a poolhall with asshole, and after exactly 3 minutes, told me asshole is probably wondering where he is and had to go ::click:: thats when the shit hit the fan. i was going to just beat the shit out of asshole, but someone convinced me otherwise to play the cards right back at him. its hard though, because i love him, but he wont listen otherwise. I try saying anything about it and i get eyes rolled at me and a pissy attitude like im a controling bitch! go hang out with your friends! i dont care! just dont lie to me or constantly go out of your way for them, when you shouldnt be. the worst part in all of this, is that asshole is probably gay. thats why i want to beat the shit out of him. because if he touched him once. i would break his arm off and feed it to rabid wolverines. heres to another fun filled day of education and hell served on a platter afterwards. jenn Current Mood: frustrated

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October 4th, 2005

03:19 am - little side note you get to know yourself by reading all your posts. i think i might have terets and am abit crazy. ok im done. night. Current Mood: terets

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02:53 am - something bit me and my foot itches. you know what i hate? private posts. lol nosy yes, but damnit if you want to say something dont be a pussy about it!! ...anywho yeah i woke up to pee and found myself updating my livejournal. i had a really great weekend. ian and i had the house to ourselves and his mother invited me to spend the night, which i need to do again soon, it was the best sleep ive gotten in a long time. homecoming was good. one little arguement though; we are so gay, we argue about the wierdest things sometimes, and after about ten minutes we realized this, and went and danced horribly to rap music. I didnt go to school today, i had dry heaves as soon as I woke up (no not drinking or anything else) i think it was just me having an exhasting weekend.::yawn:: i leave for wyoming soon, though i wont say when, because certain people who read public posts would find it to their advantage. i want to go, but i dont. i cant leave my baby for that long! its unheard of! i dont want to go to school today, because i hate school, and also because i have a presentation due in my AP english class i havnt completed. im kinda almost done, but im s.o.l if he calls me up. ill have to improvise and thats not something i do well in front of a class of know-it-alls. Ok, i dont wanna go to wyoming, id rather stay here....but my grandparents would kill me because they already bought the plane tickets. :( ::sob:: meh..hmm..what else can i bitch about... my room is a mess, and when i say mess, i mean, for the first time, there is too much shit on my floor to make a path to my bed..well there is kinda a path. if ian and i move in together, our house will be a fucking mess.lol seriously, we both dont really clean much,soo i guess im going to have to get in the habit. i think if its our own place though, we'll care enough to clean it. i need to stop updating..he dosnt anymore, so i shouldnt. i think it just helps me vent the little things. im tired as a girl that had the best weekend of her life (wait thats me!) so im...ok that was lame...but im going to bed now, so love some of you, the rest of you, get out of my life, and you know who elses life. theres only one or two of you, and one of u ive never met, but just bug off. ::yawns:: ok its too late to be mean. night night all. Current Mood: tired

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September 15th, 2005

07:05 pm - fetus! I adopted a cute lil' viking fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! hingga hannga swerrna. My cool little norweigian viking is going to get soooooo big! lol and to answer your questions, yes my insanity has hit an all time record high. Current Mood: accomplished

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September 14th, 2005

09:06 pm - ....damnit i already did my homework (holy banana muffin cakes!) so I have nothing better to do that to update my lj again. and it really needs it to. I hadn't updated since the 31st.WOOOAHH! two weeks till homecoming. sorry, sometimes I get distracted and I was thinking about what day it was and wanted to do some simple addition (my statistics teacher would be proud) and wow, i am renting a hotel room that night...prolly not but it would be cool..err...fun..err...nm. I really want to show up looking like an indian girl for homecoming, only to embarass ian because I love him so much. Fishnet sounds better though though. w0ah..same word twice. by now you realize the extent of my boredom. wow tomorrow is already thursday. good. because i hate school. bah humbug. tehe. 11:18 sorry bout that...i got distracted by a phone call from someone.. (guess) but now im tired and am off to bed, so goodnight all and sweet dreams in happy places. Current Mood: tired

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08:40 pm - misspelling the worst day of the seven.... wedesdays suck!! and i cant spell..so for the rest of this entry, i am saying weds. to look hip and young. And walah! I am young! it works so well! .....in later news........ Yeah so away from the craziness that is me. Weds. always suck, because Ian cannot see me, due to being over worked from school. But, that is not the point, the point is that for the last five weeks, all my weds. have been miserable, save one. Today... Im sorry for once I really dont feel like going on about my day..instead..I will demand you all to read my old poetry at http://www.poetry.com and search my name...and the last name is Luhrs not Lors guys...jeez. But make sure you type jenn..cause jennifer no exist. The best one OF ALL TIME IS THIS ONE ...that I will post at the end of this. Its really weird not having anything to bitch about..lmao. OH YEAH! the guy that took me to prom two years ago wont leave me alone and he's going to be shot. He's a good friend, but he sent quite a "friendly" email to me (after telling my uncle that I looked fat in one of my pictures..bitch I could throw you! look at these biceps!) lol Ive been finding online school to be much more motivating than school school. I can sit in front of a computer, and not have to move an inch, because I have everything I could possibly need right at my fingertips. And I tend to be ahead of the stream with it too. My only problem is spanish. Being german, I cant focus on it. I can learn anything from the Europe area quite easily (save french) and bulgarian is my favorite...only you cant use the american alphabet. pooh. Speaking of pooh, I discovered (on my own) that if you tickle ian just right, he sounds like winnie the pooh and its freakin hilarious as a fat kid chasing a kid who stole his chocolate cake. just picture it.... funny no? AND now i cant stop listening to the Decemberists. I thought it was a phase, but alas, I was mistaken, and I actually enjoy their lyrical melodies. AND lastly, I think I shall wear fishnets to homecoming...or a dead animal slung over my shoulder for all the PEDA freaks at my school. please, dont tell me Im cruel, It would be a waste of breath. now the poem of olden times. Snow Winter wonderland that I seek, take me from the grasps of heat, roll me into a bundle of diamond glow, the prosperous life you call snow, Take away my troubles and fears, become everything to me that is dear, Show me a warmth that only your cold can provide, and with your color, my dreams, may hide. Jenn Luhrs Copyright ©2005 Jenn Luhrs Current Mood: crazy Current Music: "California one youth and beauty brigade"

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August 31st, 2005

05:54 pm - snipping away my wings... ok...thats the subject cause i was looking at my icon chick, and had a pair of scissors in my hands and that popped into my head. ANYWHO TODAY SUCKED. somebody (meaning middle school childrens) messed up my car with baby powder and wet toilet paper. i have some people on the inside, who were by my car at 10 30, and it was already white as my ass. i got to school WAYYY late so i know it wasnt a high school student. and it happened to 3 other cars..but mine was the worst... i dont have enemies (well in port charlotte...the closest one is like 2 hours away) I keep to myself at school...ive never had any type of confrontation with anyone since i moved here, so i guess thats what upset me the most. too much bad luck with autos. totalled car a year ago, broken into car, fucked up car from stupid people i trusted, and wa la, now this...it was a BITCH to clean. i spent five mins washing it off with sophia, then i got home and there were adorable white streaks all over my car. how lovely. i got kicked out of the library at lunch (the only place i go that i feel at home at in the school) because its "not open to students during lunch" ........i go there every day..this is the first time i heard this. they asked me why i dont go to lunch. (1) im broke thank you, my parents dont usher me with money like the rest of the brats here and, (2), you guys switched my schedule 3 times so i dont know anyone at this lunch period, so blow my mighty ass bitch. thank god for being an AP kid, carter allows me to park on campus as long as i keep it "hush hush" haha it was funny "what classes do u have" "AP and honors" "...well i dont do this for everyone.." it must have been the burning fire in my eyes too...thats had an affect on a few people before now. ..The only good part about today was driving to the car wash with an all white car...that was hilarious because i enjoy strange looks from floridians like nobodys business. i was kinda bad though.. i was yelling KKK out the window...which sophia said was ok, because all of her friends are black and some of mine are too..lol my car was then officially dubbed, "THE KKKmobile" mwwaahhhhaaa. but seriously, if they had covered it with black, i would have called it :THE Black Panthermobile" im not racist, just odd. but i called off work because i have homework and i would kill someone im so distressed over always being stressed. i was going through my pysch book and took this stressed test. i got a 339. anything over 300 meant that 70 percent of people over 300 became "sick" in one way or another....soo im not telling ian that because i hate worrying him. hes already freaked about my health since my surgery...i dont blame him...we both think the same about losing the other...i would actually die..and thats not some horrible lusty teen girl stating that, that is a woman who knows she loves someone. and if any of you (and u know who u are) want to take him away from me, ull have to go through me, guns, knifes, chains and pipes because i will die befoe anyone takes him from me and you better believe ill fucking take that to my shallow grave bitches. so back the fuck off or feel the rage of a woman who has been locked in a very small cage for 17 years.....as for my friends whom i love...dont hold me back.. Current Mood: i will send u back to hell.. Current Music: "Everything I try to do, nothing seems to turn out right"

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August 25th, 2005

04:41 pm - WOOHOO IM GONNA MARRY IAN!!.lol Your LJ Wedding LiveJournal Username Age Favorite Day Of The Week MondayTuesdayWednesdayThursdayFridaySaturdaySundayI Don't Have A FavoriteAll Of ThemAny Day I get To Sleep In The Person You Marry a_fitting_name The Bridesmaid xalwayzsmilinx The Best Man xalwayzsmilinx The Celebrant a_fitting_name The Person Who Gets Drunk And Spews On The Bride the_a_is_4_adam The Person Who Wishes You Were Marrying Them xalwayzsmilinx Total Number Of Guests At The Wedding 656 Total Cost Of The Wedding $38,969 This Fun Quiz created by Nat at BlogQuiz.Net Free ringtones and wallpapers! Click here! the horrible part is some of them are repeated...because i only know 3 people (that i know of) on live journal...yes i know its tragic..but ITS SOO COOL! Current Mood: hyper

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04:39 pm - im going to do a thousand of these and theres nothing u can do about it Your LJ friends' deep, dark secrets LiveJournal Username What is your favorite color? What is the answer to life, the universe, and everything? 42LoveI dunno. Now bring me a sandwich!I like eggs. How much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood? 42It depends on several variables, including the woodchuck's chucking abilities...Mmm... Woodchucks...I like eggs. I wonder if woodchucks do, too. Can you feel the love tonight? Yes!No...All I know is that I would love a nice woodchuck sandwich right about now...I can feel the love... for eggs! Is really a cyborg a_fitting_name Wants to take over the world a_fitting_name Lusts after you the_a_is_4_adam Is obsessed with eggs the_a_is_4_adam Is obsessed with woodchucks a_fitting_name Has an impossibly tragic past xalwayzsmilinx Has special powers the_a_is_4_adam Is George W. Bush in real life a_fitting_name This Fun Quiz created by Lynn at BlogQuiz.Net Free ringtones and wallpapers! Click here! ...the best part is ALL OF IT IS TRUE!! (minus adam lusting after me...eww we're like, almost related)

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August 23rd, 2005

03:55 pm - We both go down together Up here on the cliffs of Dover, So high you cant see over. And while your head is spinning, Hold tight it's just beginning. You come from parents wonton, A childhood, rough and rotten. I come from wealth and beauty, Untouched by work or duty. (CHORUS) And oh, my love, my love. And oh, my love, my love. We both go down together. I found you, a tattoo'd tramp, A dirty daughter from the labor camps. I laid you in the grass of a clearing, You wept but your soul was willing. (CHORUS) Meet me on my vast veranda, My sweet, untouched miranda. And while the seagulls are crying, We fall but our souls are flying (CHORUS X3) im a freak that now has a liking for The Decemberists, and once someone finds out, im going to have to find very big ear plugs....i remember proclaiming hate to these guys, and now i cant stop listening to them, especially this song, which has a history with ian and i. he has to talk my parents into letting me go to the concert which i looked on their website, its on a weds. but i HAVE TO GO. because i found out someone i strongly dislike is going and (a) i like these guys alot now and (b) i have to kick this bitches ass. but anywho its raining so im going to go watch because i lorb the rain ^_^ Au revoir pour le moment mes amis, je vous aime tout. Current Mood: content Current Music: The Decemberists "We both go down together"

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03:03 am - oh god. i think i just had my first panic attack ladies and gentlemen. i woke up like 20 mins ago, and u know those spiders that arnt huge but really really nasty lookin? one was right above me , so i got a piece a paper and tried to get it, but it literally hopped out, and so i screamed and ran for the bathroom and searched myself for it, then i went back in my room and lo and behold, it was above my freakin bed again. at this point i started to cry because im tired as hell, and ian does bug shit for me usually, and i know im not going to get to see him for awhile, so that made it worse.so i finally got a bag and squished it (hopefully) inside, and ran and threw it in the garbage...then got a hairspray can to find all its webs...thats when i started freaking out again because there were soooo many...and so i sat on the floor for like ten minutes thinking about driving over there and sleeping with him for a few hours... then i finally calmed down enough to get rid of them with this duster thing. i just want to drive over to his house right now, and i know he wouldnt mind, but idk ive never gone this crazy. im sick to my stomach, eyes watering, and i feel like crying more because of how lame ive been the last 20 mins. im too scared to go near my bed, and im really tired so its frustrating. u have no idea how horrible it is when you really need to be with someone you love and you cant be with them. right now my eyes are watering more than they should be, because i sprayed so much damn hairspray.i hate being so reliant on another person but what am i supposed to do? i love him i cant help it! ::pouts: but i cant think of anything to say now so bye for now.... Current Mood: panic attack

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August 22nd, 2005

11:00 pm - mirrored glass fingers slowly tremble pressed against my fate, fogged over and smudged it's hard to see what is really there. fear is all that it's smudges seem to create, fear of what really is behind the eyes in that blank solemn stare. Voices from every corner seem to awaken, they talk about deceit, lies, and sometimes how to forgive. I pray to God that most of them are mistaken, and that their words will cease to live. But they are never wrong, as much as I seem to pray. I just wish I could belong, in that reflection of today. I cannot wait any longer to see, a pretty face in the glass. Oh how I wish that I could be, more forgiving of the past. A new smudge comes into view, and tries to wipe away the others. It seems different, and it seems new, but it could be just a brother. It has a clear face unlike the other smudges, and seems to be a peaceful sort. But because of the others I seem to hold my grudges, and now the glass begins to contort. A crack runs through the center, and he tries to help my through. He promises to be gentler, than the others that led me askew. I take his hand as the glass breaks, and the voices fall away. But even though I love him that makes another mirror for today. Current Mood: lonely

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August 15th, 2005

09:44 pm - woowwahahhh woah the room is spinning....im on this lunestra stuff for my insomnia and night terrors.woaahhh!! and this is why i do not drink or do drugs...i like self control!brrrr now im cold. i wonder what it would be like to stand up. meh. idk AHHHHH! school in the morning...bleh...o i hate drugs!! im halucinating a little now. and i bet u can guess how long i spent typing all this up. my baby is out of town until tomorrow...then hes MINE! hhahhaa ::evil laugh:: in listening to SundayRunners. and they kick ass. "Half my height" listen to it, and feel the love of midgets everywhere combine.lol well guys, not much here, just the usual wandering mind. scared of him being taken away from me. some dumb hoe from his jujitsu class was hitting on him...then he said he was taken....then she did it again....sooo naturally im going to throw a car at her. so we walk into panera in sarasota, and lo and behold, the dumb hoe pulls him away from me for about 5 mins. at that point. i lost my appetite (she was pretty but thank you jesus boobless) soo i got out of there faster than a man in a gay bar..i mean, a straight man in a.....you get the point. i swear if something happens like this.......poof! i dont know what id do.id become a nun. because i would never want to get laid again or date again. i love him to much....but at least he loves me back right?lol sorry if any of this is nuts, im heavily sedated and am typing with two fingers searching for the letters. hahahahhah aaaaaahhh goodnight florida! and the other 49 baby! Current Mood: drugged Current Music: Jackie Green "about cell block #9"

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August 13th, 2005

12:06 pm - AHHHHHHHH!!!! did i get your attention? good. yeah i should be getting ready for work, but my mind wanders waaay too much for my own good. school started on weds. and it was ok....im just worried about having ALL AP classes...and especially having Bishop. i feel like i have to live up to Ian's "god like" past in that class....so in other words...this is how the class will go this year. i will work my ass off, and maybe get a B. the end. lol anywho, i need to seriously get over this whole horrible relationship past thing because im about ready to throw myself out of a window...one thats more than 3 feet from the ground i mean. i hate it because, i truly love him, but, there is always that little demon whispering in my ear all the horrible things that could go wrong. i think its just the fact that i trust him so much, that it scares me because im not one to trust people.ugggh i work 1 to 10 today...i want to quit but, i know i still need an income so .....but i dont feel like searching for another job. bleh. but im sorry if i dont reply much to you guys, i have to steal my moms lap top to get internet, ive tried everything to fix mine but it wont work for some odd reason. i guess im also stressed about what to do with my life. i was positive about my archeology career, but now idk..i dont like not being sure of myself....oh well i guess i should go get dressed out of "someone" elses clothes ^_^ ha, its wonderful when you have the mental capability to put a smile on your own damn face. i should just marry myself. ...dont all laugh at once Current Mood: curious

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